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I wonder if it will ever stop striking me how different my perspective is from most people's. I've just been reading through an ASIP reaction post and seeing how many people were shipping Johnlock immediately made me remember how surprised I was to see an intense platonic connection between them. I specifically did not ship them. It was so obvious to me that Sherlock isn't into that sort of thing. I went into AO3 looking for friendship fics and was disappointed not to find many. I started reading shippy fics out of desperation. Then I started thinking that I might have been wrong because no one seemed to agree with me.

Maybe it's a good thing I didn't join the fandom back then. I was already getting enough "everyone wants romance/sex" messages from the fandoms I was in. Seriously, where were the ace fics hiding that I didn't see them? Then again, maybe if I had joined the fandom, I would have found them. I don't know. I'm still shocked by how old online asexual communities are, because I'd never heard of them until a couple of years ago. It all feels so recent and new.

Anyway, currently, I feel in this weird place in the Johnlock fandom. I don't know if I'm even allowed to use that term in the platonic sense considering what a staple it is in shipping fandoms to complain "how can anyone see these two as platonic?". Right now, I do see bi John as being in love with Sherlock. Sherlock, though... Yeah, my boy is aroace. Sex-repulsed, too. Which I finally had the courage to say in the Johnlock discord I'm in, and no one kicked me out, so yay. I don't know. I'm brand new to this fandom, so I still have little clue about what the dynamics are and the history. It has been a very welcoming place so far, and no one has complained about my aroace headcanon, which is refreshing. Fandom in general is not a safe space for aces (especially sex-repulsed ones), so it's nice to find a corner that is.